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NEW BLOG

So I’ve moved to Tumblr and I like it a lot better than wordpress!

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Don’t want to do anything right now.. =[

It seems like nothing is going right lately.

Getting yelled at by my family..
I dont think there is any hope for me this semester at school..
Not doing such a good job at work anymore..
Want to practice piano more and exercise and play badminton..

I can’t do everything.. I have to give up on something?
Work, School, Piano, Going out too much..
Why can’t i do everything without getting sick?

It makes me sad.. that I dont think I’ll be able to do what I wanted to do this semester. I will just be another semester behind and start again in the Summer. Being sick is no fun.

Why can’t I time manage or be more organized this semester.. TT.

Focus.

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I am a loser

Febuary 13th I finally realI’m a friggen loser, hopefully Willie will make me awesome sauce =T.

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Else Mobile

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2 Weeks. (2.19 – 3.05)

No facebook.

No Youtube.

No MSN.

Pretty much no internet for next 2 weeks to study for my midterms and finish assignments/papers. I hope I can get lots done so I can go out.

This semester:

  1. CGA 2.30. Apply and Declare Economics major.
  2. Read Read Read
  3. Priortize and Don’t waste time
  4. Practice 1hr of piano a day

I’ve known this for a long time.. that he can’t go to the states, but I guess.. I really want him to come. I don’t want to keep bringing it up either cause there is 0% chance he can go (my last time asking last night) and I think he would want to go to with everyone, so I will not say anything. Maybe there will be another day where we can all go on a day trip~ <3

He will surprise me a lot.” – JN. So true. There are a lot of firsts, things nobody has ever done/said, and O____O|| these kinds of faces!

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Day 1&2

Day 1:

  • “We’re getting married… next year.”
  • Cannot unless se JN. “Wow.. Wow…. Wow..” xD
  • Pickuped up games, Waiting during Piano
  • Lunch: Steamed pork buns where the whole menu was in Chinese; but it was very yummy.
  • Arcade: photohunt-350?, sf4, ghost, bm
  • T&T: bread and drinks
  • Practice driving 2
  • Dinner: Wings -> Japanese. Not a bad thing.

Day 2:

  • Study/Piano in the morning
  • Aloe/Aloe Vera
  • Mcdonalds, found snowboarding! Need to find all the Quachi toys!
  • Ikea: hotdogs and icecream
  • My weakness.. =0=;; Almost went through a red light!
  • Driving lots, missed street and went the long way home
  • Day 1/4 complete.

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Valentines ♥ 2010

“Don’t open unless: a) Willie lets you. b) you are “ready”. c) we’re getting married. d) you guess it right w/ one guess.” – WC.

kimchi, xing neng quai le, 3 seconds, raemon, oreos, park, dinner, fma, blanket… so much happened in one day! I don’t want to blog everything = =.. I guess that I can sum up the day with one word: Lucky? For the both of us~

I think the more I get to know him, I like him more. There are things though i’ve thought about before and I maybe sad/hurt, but I’m still moving forward. My dad also said that i’m going through my “high school love” phase- Dad maybe right.

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Microsoft Windows Phone 7 Series

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Rainy Days

It seems like every time we meet it’s always raining or when we want to go to the park =O=;; but it’s nice too.  I dont think it really matters what you do just spending time together is fine.

I will always remember though how sad I was that day, but I think I’ve made him sadder more times because of miscommunications. I want to make it up to him.

Oh, and only he can joke about marriage– seriously if it was any other guy I think I would run!

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Week 6 – Motivation

Need a little more motivation..

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Dating

Before I told all my friends that you can date and see other people at a time because you aren’t really “official”, but now that I am there is no way that I can do that.

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Scared but will keep moving forward.. no more worrying!

Everyone is scared of something in their life.  The only way of getting over it, I think, is going through it. So even if i’m really scared and dont know what i’m doing i will just keep on going. ND told me before that as long as two people are both moving in the same direction it’s fine. I cant just stop that wouldnt solve anything and it would be stupid for me to blindly run into it, so I will walk.. slowly.

But what am I really afraid of? Why do I like him? Like it’s not serious now, but I feel like I need to seriously address these questions for myself.. I dont know if I should believe CC (haha shouldnt) but makes sense like when u date what is it for? To get to know a person…

Scary? Hell Yes. Will it hurt? Probably.
But for the sake of allowing yourself to truly be human, take the plunge.

: ) It’s so worth it.

-NJ

=] wow, today is such a sunny day…
I want to go to the park.

And why is it so hard to find a scary clown mask!? But without WC’s help I would never of been able to find anything! I was really tired yesterday though I think cause I was driving so much. Well, back to Vancouver again.

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Sick!

I haven’t exhausted my body this much in awhile.. or I just can’t remember the last time, but I got/still have a major case of “momsal” = body sickness? It was awful. For the past two days..

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This is it: 2010

Half way through the first month of the new year and I am still in vacation mode = no focused and just leting time pass by. This year I have talked about many new year resolutions but haven’t really done anything…

  1. Focused and Organized, but also Enjoy life.
  2. Finish Piano and Theory to Grade 10.
  3. Read and Write A LOT MORE = Critical Thinking.
  4. Keep up with Korean, Japanese, and Mandarin language. (Pick up French sometime in the future.)
  5. Learn to cook more meals. Practice making cakes.
  6. CGAP 2.30. Graduate with Economic and minor in World Literature (?).
  7. Research about CGA/CA. (I feel like I need to prove myself to everyone, especially my parents, that I am not stupid and can actually “be someone” and use my 3 years of accounting at Kwantlen)
  8. “A” Game. Exercise and Eat healthy.
  9. Friends and Family relationships. (FH, HON, KTeam, Work, VKPC, GCC)

O_o a pretty long list?! Well, it’s an on-going process.

This semester:

  1. CGA 2.30. Apply and Declare Economics major.
  2. Read Read Read
  3. Priortize and Don’t waste time
  4. Practice 1hr of piano a day

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Week 12 – Sigh

Not going very well. Being very unproductive and lazy. No motitvation. No ideas to write down.  Less than 5 days to write 2 papers that I haven’t really started yet.. Also not doing to well at work. Today will be another test as I will be working as the “manager” i’m so scared.

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Week 11 – OMG, Already?!

So I barely got most of homework done last week with the expense of failing my Japanese oral and forgetting to hand in my completed reading response. This week.. I don’t know what to expect.

I got new headphones. I kno, I need to be saving my money for my summer trip, but I just had to buy them. I love my headphones.

Monday

Woke up early and went to Vancouver with my mom to study. I think today was pretty productive: Finished reading a novel (that was suppose to be done last week), meet up with my Japanese partner, and worked on my English final paper. Oh can’t forget – I even read the newspaper today!

I really like downtown Vancouver. The harbour centre campus is nice too. A lot people are dress up in formal clothes and seem very busy getting to work. It must be nice to be working in a office setting? I’ve always thought of working in an office, but I don’t know, lately seems like I’ll be going into education and working in a classroom?

As the day comes to an end, well it’s only 5:00pm, but it’s pretty dark outside and will be able to go home~ Probably play some more HON though haha -_-;;;

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Week 10 – So Dead

WL: Reading 370 Pages in 3 days. Write a reader response. Have questions ready for author’s interview; Final paper research.

JP: Written Assignment, Recording, eLive Interview, and Quiz

FL: Final paper research.

 

Work

Seriously need to hire some more people. It’s getting really hard now to study and work and keep up with all my friends. I was pretty tired yesterday at work and the boss was like why are you sad. I’m not sad, just really tired.

 

C4C: Solarium & Winter Conference

I can’t believe I actually went out and talked with a stranger about God, well mostly just listen but that was the whole exercise.  It was a lot of fun because it’s a fun activity were a person picks a couple pictures that represent their life, where they want to be, who they think of God, their spiritual life, and where they want that to be.

My group leader for C4C is just very encouraging and I really look up to her.

This Winter I also want to go to the Winter Conference, I got those days booked off, I think, but it’s gonna be a little expensive and I’m so broke now.


HON – Hero of Newerth

A new game I’ve been playing. I think I’m addicted.

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Kutless – What Faith Can Do

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise

From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don’t have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That’s what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

What Faith Can Do LyricsEverybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

Overcome the odds
http://www.elyricsworld.com/what_faith_can_do_lyrics_kutless.html
You don’t have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That’s what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

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Week 9 – Crunch Time

Faithfulness & Unconfessed Sin

I don’t know if God is speaking to me with these songs and his words but a lot of them are about faith and the faithless returning to Him. On Sunday, Pastor Charlie spoke about love, how Jesus got angry with the people in the temples, and how church is suppose to be a house of prayer. I just recently learned about unconfessed sin at my c4c bible study and Pastor Charlie also brough it up in the sermon. I don’t know if I can conclude that because I do not ask for forgiveness daily for my unconfessed sin that last week I had such a stressful week or things were not going that well. I also forgot to bring my bible to church, but this week all the scriptures were on the PowerPoint. This morning, I was reading Jeremiah 3:19-22 “Return, faithless people, I will cure you of backsliding.” “Yes, we will come to you, for you are the LORD our God.”  This is something I’ve always been struggling with – backsliding. This week for some strange reason it seems like I am suppose to rely on God more and be faithful. As my grandmother said, “I’ve been blessed by God’s words.”

Halloween 2009

Totally forgot about my Japanese assignments.. Hopefully I wont get too many marks off for handing them in late.

Went to RC’s house after work. I was suppose to take the bus but my mom drove me to his place – I was so happy. At his house though, I just can’t drink alcohol anymore. We also played with fireworks and they were a lot of fun. Stayed over at this house till 4am and got home around 5am.

XXI

Last Friday I went shopping with JW to forever 21 in metrotown. JW says it’s the not the real one but like a side branch. I finally got really comfortable black pants (my favorite!), a red plaid shirt, a blueish green cardigan, white hoodie, and an accessory for less than $100. (Sigh, I know I need to be saving for my trip in the summer). It was a lot of fun and releaved some stress except when I have to look at my visa bill and still have to pay off last month’s bills.

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Week 8 – Falling Behind

Homework

  1. Group presentation Summary & Reflective Paper due Wednesday
  2. Go over WL100 Diagnostic Paper with professors
  3. Watch Spring Awakening & Listen to the soundtrack due Thursday
  4. Reader Response 07 due Thursday
  5. Japanese Assignment 3 due Thursday
  6. Japanese Recording 3 due Saturday
  7. Japanese online quiz 8 due Sunday

Going out way too much and coming home past 12am for the past week. I need to stop socializing and seriously start using my time for studying. Gotta use all my extra time for studying as I have also taken 2 more shifts for work. Working 3 days a week can be exhausting enough my mom and grandma want to have bible study on thursday nights. Every single night is booked.

Getting through this day~

Wednesday & Thursday

I can’t believe I got through this day with only 6 hours of sleep. Went to school on Wednesday with a lack of sleep from the night before because of work and finishing assignment due Wednesday. After class went to work and did the same thing. This morning actually transited to school and was only a couple of minutes late. Rushed through my japanese assignment in my 2 hour break… For now I am done.

Really starting to not like Thursdays anymore.

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Week 7

… Already?! The week is going by way too fast. It’s going to be a busy week.

The most stressful week.. EVER. I can’t believe the week is already starting.. I’m falling behind in school.

Winter & Summer Plans

$55.24 SkiCard. Go snowboarding in the Winter. Go with team to ski trip.

$Save. 3 weeks in Australia for the summer.

Twenty-Five

Went to my friends dinner,  i noticed many of them had dates or are dating now. I think it’s a good time to be dating. I feel like the next time we meet I have to bring someone too but not just anyone. sigh.

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Week 6

The beginning of the week was very easy-going as i only had to go to school 2/5 days. By the end of the week though, I feel so discouraged and defeated. I hope next week will be better..

Happy Thanksgiving & Zombieland

Had a big Whang family dinner with everyone and ate lots of yummy food. I noticed that I dont really like whip cream.. Maybe it was the kind I got.. I hope that’s it.

Always give thanks and always be thankful.

Watched Zombieland on SS’s birthday after thanksgiving dinner, it was so random but it all worked out well. I got him a card, also got everyone to sign it, and a small piece of cake. I think even if you don’t like cake the birthday girl or boy must have cake. The movie was funny after I got use to the zombie makeup and blood. I dont think I will watch another zombie movie even if it’s a comedy. One thing I did like was how the movie used 3D text.

Thursday

Feeling a little down… I just got back my first in-class essay and performed poorly. Why couldn’t I have a good idea?

It also didn’t help that there was an accident and the 145 had to take a detour so stuck in major rush hour traffic it took about an hour just to get down from the mountain. I hate taking transit – espeically busses.

It was just not my day. Feeling better the day after, but still hard to get over and working on improvement.

Church

Missed church on sunday, my bible study class on Tuesday for C4C, and went to GCC’s bible study Wednesday night for the last class. I Should review: TULIP and look over previous chapters for exam. Should be reading the bible more and praying daily, but I’ve just been caught up with school.

Saturday

Got called in to work an hour earlier today and it was the most busiest and upsetting day since I’ve started working. I never knew that I could make so many basic mistakes on orders.. It was hard doing my own job and filling in for the manager too along with working one less employee and the one who is working just started about a month ago. All throughout dinner service I was thinking about Hell’s Kitchen (been watching it lately) and I just had to get through this dinner service. There were a couple times where I wished my manager was here and I could take a break from it all.

It doesn’t end there, I went to play badminton from 10pm – 2:30am. It was fun to let out my stress, exercise, and have some fun. My feet, legs, and back hurt a lot from badminton, but it’s good. I should keep this up and play everyweek.. well maybe not until this late, but need to exercise at least once a week.

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Week 5

TC Leaving

It’s the first time one of my closest friends is leaving, well not forever, but for awhile. I think i will miss him. Although, I can’t believe that TC thought of just leaving the  country without saying anything to anyone! I seriously would never want to talk to him again.

2 days later finally my friend replies = =, dont know how much i worry that I couldn’t sleep!

Studying with LMK12

Studying with LK involves lots of food but mostly snacks and napping and staying at school for long periods of time a day. Occasionally we will have the odd greasy food addiction and go get fries or crispy beef chow mein. I love studying. Went to get food at our work one day and study up at SFU’s Burnaby campus for a good 5 hours straight!

Stressful much? No time to waste..

School is stressing me out..
Don’t know what to do now, next, or should have already done:

  1. Reader Response for: Trains (Finish reading by Tuesday)
  2. Reader Response for: Dolls (Finish reading by Thursday)
  3. Diagnostic Essay due Friday
  4. Presentation Idea due Sunday night
  5. Japanese Vocabulary
  6. Japanese Week 5&6 Lessons
  7. Japanese Quiz 6
  8. Japanese Written Assignment (due Thursday)

Outside of school stuff..

Planning for various events (badminton team dinner, Halloween, birthdays), playing more badminton, and want to go to the gym more and get into shape! Also want to get into this game called HON (Hearos of Newerth). CC also came to Vancouver! I have to meet up with her and study. Glad the week is coming to an end.. but that means it will just start all over again. Yippee.

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HTC HD2

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Softbank 936SH

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Softbank 934SH

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Week 4

This is has gone by so so fast that I have trouble remember what I did.

Slim in 6 & Banana Diet

Trying to start a new diet/exercise program but it’s not working at all. How am i not suppose to eat anything after 8pm?! I just finished having mushroom soup, yogurt, Doritos, 2 ice-cream bars, a couple cups of tea.. I think that’s all..  Sigh.

The Flu

A lot of people seem to be catching the flu and I think that i may be catching it? For the first time in my life I had to stop on the transit train to stop moving and find a bathroom.. I felt very nauseated. Ever since that day, I’ve been feeling feverish, nauseated, tired, dizzy, and always cold.

School

Falling behind in school.. Need to start reading and getting back on to track. There’s also this guy in one of my classes that I feel like he’s watching me or it could just be my imagination? Oh well, he’s cute i guess? hehe~

Movies

Watched the proposal and girlfriends of ghosts past and I like the first but not so much the second. I think reynolds is super cute he’s like the boy next door image! There is always that girl/guy u may have let slip away? Maybe I should always have this thing where every Friday I watch 1 movie?

ANTM

Episode 5 is so sad. After getting to know someone then she gets kicked off. “Learned that we shouldn’t judge or talk behind other ppl’s back without getting to know the person”. This is also the only tv show that I actually watch haha~

Church, GCC

Had a wonderful chat/catch up time with SL언니 on Saturday night after work at Tim Hortons. I feel like she is someone who I am suppose to meet right now in my life, so I will follow and learn from her as my small group leader. I really think our small group is special and love all my group memebers.

I also feel a little lonely (?) without Pastor CC. After going to VKPC I feel like I want to help out GCC more and serve more in the church, however I know what kind of person I am and do not want to fail.

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Week 3

Work & Tip

I don’t wanna work evening shifts and go to school the next day. Working thursday, friday, and saturday night was intense. I can’t believe I spilt miso soup on somebody and some splashed onto her dress. I ran into LK twice and got burned with gree tea. There were so many customers and orders that there was a time when I really did not know what to do.. but with all this hard work it does pay off. I made my first $100+ tips for the weekend and I do like working.

School

I need to actually be more engaged in and with school. I need to be more active and want to study. Need to read more… I need to do so many things?

Cooking

A skill I need to work and improve on.. My dad taught me how to make spaghetii. I will make spaghetii for my family next time. I’ve noticed that I do not really know how to cook.

The Ugly Truth

Lately, I’ve been talking to people about “this game” and people are telling me to act, dress, think or be this way but in reality I like who I am. Why do I need to change? If the person doesn’t like me for who I am.. then that’s just going to be it. This game is so easily played out too when you are not emotional, but what kind of relationship is that? I think if you really want to talk to this person just go for it. If that person likes u too then that person would make time and understand you. “There is no such thing as neediness” – HW (2009).

Though as a Korean girl, I can’t just let things go… There’s just way to much pressure for me to diet and be like this typical sized and looked girl. My dieting has failed miserably too… It seems like I try to start to diet every week. I’ve been eating out way to much this week. Sunday was hot pot at work with my co-workers. Tuesday was wings with my cousins and brother. Friday was BBT after badminton. Saturday was dinner after my work.

In conclusion, I will trust in God and who he has for me. As for being the best at something or standing out, I will do my best in school and take up some hobbies like piano, guitar, cooking, and starcraft.

Travelling?

Hopefully will have saved enough to go to Austrailla next Summer with LK, NJ, and MK. The Summer afterwards going to Korea with CC!

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Updating my look?


University Student

Originally uploaded by aftertherain

After I came back from JC’s house I feel like I’m chaning a little, starting with my hair, clothes, and putting on makeup. I went to school today without makeup and I sort of felt like something was missing. Enough though I’m not use to myself having makeup on and dressing up (being very uncomfortable) I feel like this the way things are going now…

Dressed up today looking like “university student”.  Let’s try this updating my look this year..

I Love this outfit ♥ !
Also wearing my new black flats (Finally!)

09.17/2009

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My Trip to Victoria Island

Friday, I rushed out of my last class and went home to pack for my mini trip to Victoria Island. This was my first time going to Victoria all by myself. Excited, I left my house around 2:30pm. I took the bus and skytrain and managed to catch the 5:00pm ferry at Tsawwassen. I reached Victoria around 6:30pm and had to catch 2 busses to reach JC’s house. What an unpleasant and scary evening it was indeed. I followed my friend’s instructions and I got lost. I almost cried too, but I told myself not to cause what good will it do for me. This is still so true – “If it’s the first time I’m going somewhere.. I will get lost.” Long story short, our phones both died and I called a taxi and finally got to JC’s house at 9:30pm. We had a wonderful pasta dinner and slept early. I was so happy to be “home” and with someone I knew at a place I had no idea about.

I also lost my brother’s USB and my dad wasn’t too happy about it. I need to buy a new USB for everyone in my family.

Things I noticed about Victoria:

  • It is very peaceful
  • There are coverings at bus stops
  • The curb is painted red indicating where a bus stop is
  • There are not many asian people
  • Bus drivers are actually happy and friendly
  • Transfer tickets are printed on newspapers strips and there are no zones just a time limit
  • It only costs $2.25 to take the bus
  • There is no T&T, H-Mart, or Diaso
  • You can’t or shouldn’t drink tap water

Saturday, I spent the day touring Victoria and getting alll dressed up. It look awhile for JC and I to get ready to go out. I wore a skirt and white shirt with really high heels that killed. So by the end of the day, I ended up buying new shoes at Aldo and wore them out of the store. We talked and walked a lot and had coffee at Starbucks. Had a delicious dinner at at Korean restaurant in downtown. The service and food was very good. I would come here again. Then we went home to rest before it got too late.

Sunday, we didn’t have much time, so we both got ready and had lunch at Apple Bees and then I had come home.

Things I learned about myself:

  • I would not be able to live in Victoria
  • The kind of place I want to live in is too expensive, so it’s better for me to live with my family

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First Week of School

Mixed feelings about going back to SFU..
There are a lot of readings to complete..
I meet some new and nice people..
I think I will like it here.

For the weekend,
I’m in Victoria!
Spending it with my high school ♥ bff~

I got lost.. I almost cried.
Finally got home and ate so much yummy food!

Time for rest..
A good week so far..

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LG BL40

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Sigh,

:(

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Not your typical Monday

Tired!
It’s been awhile since I’ve been this physically drained.

I’m so tired!

I want to sleep more, but I can’t because I have to get ready for work.

Work is fine, just that my body feels sore and my shoulders/neck/arms/FEET are sun burned.

I think I’m getting use to this routine now.

6~8 Weeks

Waiting…

Waiting…

1 more year?

What to do about school..
Right now I just need to graduate..

Hopefully today is the day I hear back from them..

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3년 3개월: 당신이 행복하게 살기를 내 소원이다 … 사랑했잖아 … Can’t Believe Time Has Past, But I’m Still Here

I just found out you are doing well and i can see that you have moved on. I don’t know what I should be feeling now, happy and sad. I see you online, but I just can’t come to add you as a friend. I just can’t forgive myself to be able to face you or even message you.

I don’t think I can ever let this go cause it had such a big impact on my life and at that time. I’ll never forget it even though I keep trying to forget it all the time.

I don’t even know what I would say to you.. “Hi.”? I’m really curious but I won’t dare to speak to you again. Even if you message me first, I’m scared and I think I will ignore you.

Can I finally move on now?

What a long time period in my life where I just could never forgive myself and regret a lot of things.

I think I’ve learned a couple things since then and I pray I will never make the same mistakes.

I’m really glad and I wish you a very happy life.

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To: ND

08. I’m Sorry

I’m sorry 니 안에 살던 난
I’m sorry 참 행복했던 나
널 내 품에서 울게만 해서
잘 못해줘서 지치게 해서
힘들게 해서 떠나게 해서
그런 부족한 나라서
미칠 것 같아
bye bye bye bye bye
거짓말 같아
bye bye bye bye bye
니 모습 사라질 때까지
다 사라져도
난 돌아설 수 없잖니
후회가 많아

I’m sorry 널 보고 싶은 밤
I’m sorry 잠들 수 없는 밤
이별 뒤에서 눈물 알아서
너무 늦어서 그리워해서
니 맘 떠나서 사랑 알아서
그런 미안한 나라서
어떻게 보내
why why why why why
어떻게 잊어
why why why why why
니 걸음보다
내 눈물이 더 앞서 흘러
널 막을 수만 있다면
난 말할텐데 난 다 줄텐데
또 니 앞에서
내 무릎을 꿇고서 난 빌텐데
사랑한다고
너 없이 난 아무것도
할 수 없는 바보라고
어떻게 보내
why why why why why
어떻게 잊어
why why why why why
니 걸음보다
내 눈물이 더 앞서 흘러
널 막을 수만 있다면
미칠 것 같아
bye bye bye bye bye
거짓말 같아
bye bye bye bye bye
니 모습 사라질 때까지
다 사라져도
난 돌아설 수 없잖니
가슴이 아파


04. …사랑했잖아… Part2

영원할 줄만 알았어 그 땐
서로를 너무 믿었어
이제는 우리 사랑을
반으로 잘라 낸 추억에 살지만
소중한 사람이었었는데
아직도 내겐 그런데
난 항상 니 왼쪽에
너는 내 오른쪽에
버릇처럼 매일 함께 했었잖아
사랑했어 너무 사랑했어 너무
이렇게 아픈 이별일 줄 모르고
내 앞을 막아서는
커다란 추억 앞에서
바보같이 초라해진
나만 우는가봐

아직도 잊지 못한 거냐고
다른 사람 찾으라고
친구들이 말릴 땐
너만큼 날 아끼고
사랑해 줄 사람 없다고 말했어
사랑했어 너무 사랑했어 너무
이렇게 아픈 이별일 줄 모르고
내 앞을 막아서는
커다란 추억 앞에서
바보같이 초라해진
나만 우는가봐
다시 찾으려 하고 울고 떼쓰고
붙잡을수록 더욱 멀어지는 것
그게 이별인건데
사랑 후엔 다 그런데
우릴 놓지 못해서
서롤 더 아프게 해
고마웠어 너무 고마웠어 너무
아무리 아픈 사랑이었다 해도
이제서야 알았어
행복을 가르쳐 준 걸 잊지않고
미소로 나 너를 기억할게

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반쪽 – 화요비

반쪽 – 화요비

심장이두근대고 난한숨도못자겠어
My heart is palpitating that I can’t sleep

니말투니표정까지 난한번도놓친적없어
I never missed your way of speaking and your expression

사랑하는여잔 행복하댔잖아
A woman in love is supposed to be happy

난왜이렇게아픈거야
But why it is so painful to me

이럼안된다고 소리쳐봐도 난아무것도안들려
I say ‘no’ shouting but I can’t listen myself

그래도널사랑해
But I still love you

너만사랑해
I only love you

반쪽만가져도행복할수있어
I should be happy with a half of you

조금늦은내사랑이 전부잘못이고
My delayed love It’s my fault you couldn’t help with that

넌어쩔수없는거잖아 할수없잖아
You couldn’t help with that

눈뜨면니생각에 눈감아도미치겠어
Once I used to struggle thinking of you

어쩌다여길왔는지 너무힘들걸다알면서
It seemed difficult already that I couldn’t handle it

사랑은또다시 다른사랑으로 깨끗이잊혀진대잖아
A wounded heart should be cured by another love

나만생각해참못된여자
I only think about me, I’m so mean

야또그생각에울었어
And I cried again and again

그래도널사랑해
But I still love you

너만사랑해
I only love you

반쪽만가져도행복할수있어
I should be happy with a half of you

조금늦은내사랑이전부잘못이고
It’s my fault you couldn’t help with that

넌어쩔수없는거잖아
You couldn’t help with that

어쩔수없겠지만 나도알지만
And I know that too

한번만니가슴에안기고싶어
But I want to be in your arms

나를안은니마음엔 내가없겠지만그렇
There’s no space in your heart for me

게라도하고싶어
But I still want to be with you

할수있다면
Couldn’t help with that

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One Last Day

Work is getting busier, I hope that I can keep up.
: Pay attention to details!

Didn’t know Guildford closes so early at 6pm, so didn’t have a lot of time to shop but I got a new bag.

Went out to Moxies and coffee with CC ^^. It was her last day with friends ><~

Also gonna get HID lights soon! Might try playing DOTA… maybe.

Stayed up late playing SC~ I am really bad at playing, feel bad if someone is playing with me haha… maybe i should play more?

Starting to get sick from going out too much ><..

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Update: Sony Ericsson Satio (Idou)

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HTC S740

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A Day at “Super Fun Land”

“Which is any place that isn’t Surrey” – MT

I didn’t except that much from this day, but I did a lot of things and met a lot of people today.  Woke up kind of late and felt a little dizzy. I think it’s cause I haven’t really been eating much lately? Had lunch with LR and her bf at my work. I really like my work’s food and so did my friends! We also got a lot of free food to eat and couldn’t finish it all. Then headed off to Richmond to hand in some badminton entries. I feel kind of bad now cause I wasn’t very polite to the lady at the front desk and my friend, but the littlest thing just made me so angry >< I just couldn’t!  Meet up with WK, TL, and JN and got milk tea. Drinking milk tea always reminds me of how much SW loves it especially if we’re in Richmond. I was gonna drop by GC’s work too, but didn’t get the time to. Then went to this park to play with my friend’s toy airplane, but it was so windy that it was hard to control. Also, tried this new drink/slush/icecream/dessert called a Screamer? Basically it’s like a float but it’s a Slurpee with ice cream on top and it was yummy. Walked around this other park and then went to the driving range with TL and his friend. It wasn’t bad $15 for 3 buckets of 60 i guess? Finally on my way home LK called and HW and I meet up with him for bubble tea. Fun, but I think I’m getting old now? Has that place always been so noisy and loud that I could barely hear what my friend was saying who sat right beside me? Got home around 11:30 then watched Coraline and found out SS plays DOTA!

Too many things in one day…

I’m gonna be so tired tomorrow from today.

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4th Week of May

May 18: Went to work to find out that on holiday’s I don’t have to work. It was good for me cause I was really tired from the tournament and road trip.

May 19: Bad start at work.. I broke a soya sauce bottle.

May 20: Busy day at work and almost a full house! Was suppose to go over to WK’s house but parents went crazy on me and couldn’t go, so I ended having to go play golf with my mom… i still don’t get it.

May 21: “BBQ” at my house, a lot of fun and couldn’t stop crying. After went to Timmi’s cause Buble World was jam packed!

May 22: Had too many drinks with my parents.

May 23: Went to UBC with my mom and walked a lot! I don’t think you could be fat if you’ve gone to UBC for 4 years cause all the buildings are so FAR away! Or maybe.. it’s because I walk really slowly hency the nickname in highschool: turtle and all the stuff animals.

May 24:  8am morning service and EAT! Vancouver. I remembered how much I hate taking transit (skytraining is fine, i just hate buses) and why I usually drive. Ate lots of food and took a LOT of pictures~ And realized I don’t really go out that much..it’s kinda sad? I’m either at home, church, school, or playing badminton.  JW and I have also been running for 3 days now! :D :D :D I hope we can keep it up

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Washington State Open Badminton Tournament 2009

I didn’t play that well this year, but it was fun. Will this be my last tournament? I can’t seem to make up my mind…

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대장금 (Dae Jang Geum)

I’ve (finally) started watching Dae Jang Geum and it is very addicting. I never watch these historical dramas because the language is hard to understand but with the help of english subtitles, I really like this one.

Amazing storyline and characters and actors/actresses! My favorite drama of all time! Even though it was 50 episodes long, it was so worth it. I would watch it again.

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Lomography

A different way of taking pictures or seeing the world through lomography.

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Polaroid PoGo

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i <3 sushi!

Finally working after 8 months which is strange cause I’ve been working for a long time… ever since grade 11 and this was my first school year not working. My first day at work was fun. I was actually surprised that i like being a server. (And i can’t forget about the tip! ^^v)

I wanna tell all my friends to come and eat here too! I’m working at this korean-owned japanese restaurant called “i love sushi” in coquitlam.

I also have this uniforms which is nice cause I like how all the servers are matching. Well, gotta get some sleep cause im working again tmr!~

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Unwell

I get sick really easily. Sometimes it’s my allergies, sometimes it’s because I don’t get enough sleep, sometimes it’s my weak immune system with poor circulation, and sometimes i just get sick because of the change in weather patterns.

I am unwell.

(May 3, 2009) When all is going well, I  get sick. Many times I strugle and fail to get through “these storms”, but this time I cannot allow it. If i fall again, I do not know how i will ever grow or come back. I want to be strong and hold up through these difficult struggles.

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HTC Touch Diamond 2

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FUjiTSU/F01A


Release Date: 2009
Price: $800~

Highlights:

  • “Waterproof”
  • Fingerprint Reader
  • 3.5″ WVGA Touch
  • 5.2MP Camera
  • “All in 1 phone in Japan”

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